Emotional healing

I don’t remember being hugged by my mother… She is always there but I don’t remember the sweet embrace from her. I can’t remember being held closely in times when I needed it the most.
When I probed deeper I saw this question: Am I not worthy for a hug?
This belief was deeply entrenched within me that I wasn’t even aware it. When I finally acknowledged it, tears come rolling. Crying helped, a deep emotional burden was released.
Can I blame my mother for my feeling like this? I tell myself she did her best with whatever she had at that time. I know she loves me in her own way and she has sacrificed alot for us.
Love and compassion is what I need in healing – from my source self.